Today’s workout:

Warm up 2 rounds 200 m row 25 Kb swing

Tuesday 20s 65% max front squat

Run 400 m

30 Presses

30 step ups

Run 400 m

20…

Run 400 m

10…

Run 400 m

And now I am finally eating right again after a 3 day food binge. Its hot, stressful and food offers so much comfort. I feel like I undid at least a month;s worth of work in kust 3 days of sushi chocolate and pizza. Indeed there is something to be said about giving yourself a cheat meal but I took it too far and honestly I dont believe I deserve another cheat meal for at least a month. Its frustrating to look in the mirror and see how bloated and fat I look. Its disgraceful. Today after the WOD I stayed to bike so I could burn more fat. A regular asked me why I was doing the endurance workout today since tomorrow is endurance. I replied that its because Im fat and I need to burn more calories. I meant it too. On Friday V and I watched that documentary called “Weight of the Nation. “  I felt like I didnt belong in the group of people mentioned in the first part. They who cannot control what they put into their mouths. How hypocritical of me. I am part of the people with no self control. Im annoyed and down because I have higher expectations of myself. Although I know I must understand that it is part of the road to health, to have good weeks and bad weeks. I suppose its been a nice run of good weeks so I cant get too upset. Or I can because all that work is undone by 2 days of binging! Well back to the drawing board.